live.

tonight was one of the reasons why I love life.

Old friends. New friends. Food. Games. Motorcycles. Jeeps with the top down in the summer night sky. Stars. Good music. Laughing. Ice cream. Sharing secrets. Love.

I honestly can't believe that at one point in my adolesence I wanted to end my life. Life is so precious, so amazing. Sure, it's hard sometimes. Really hard. So hard that all you want to do is give up. But then there's those days that shine so bright and you never want them to end. You want to live forever. You stop caring about all of your problems and just enjoy the moment. Not once tonight did I care about my finances, my screwed up family, or whether or not I'm going to have a roof over my head next month. I was happy. Truly happy. Praise God for these moments in time, in life, that He gives us to just let go. To be free. Joyful.

My apologies for this being a little on the emo side, but it's really just how I felt.

sore.

so, we moved into our new place. it's nice. there are pictures on facebook, because I can't figure out pictures on xanga. ha.

our neighboors were already drunk (or still drunk) at 11am this morning. pot, beer, loud music- all day, every day. thank you, college town.

I start my new job monday. I've waited tables my whole life, so this is new. a real job, 8-5, and I have to shower and wear a business suit. this is definatly going to be weird.

well, everything I own is in a box on the floor. I should probably do something about that.

peace.

Currently Listening Illuminate By David Crowder Band see related

love.

I think I'm in love.

rise.

Praise be to the LORD, for He has risen!

Thank you Jesus for getting me to the other side of the cross. Thank You for the cross, thank You for Your mercy, forgiveness, love, and grace. I love you LORD, and I lift my voice to worship You. Amen!

Currently Listening Abandon Love Song see related

what.

So..about this car...I never thought that it was so difficult to deal with everything in getting a freakin car.

License branch, aka hell, told me that it's going to be like 200 bucks for a title and plates and registration. What's registration? I don't even know what that means, but it costs $65.00. And "wheel tax?!" WTF is a wheel tax? Grr... I really think they're screwing me over, but I don't know anything about being a grown up, so I really just don't know. It's hard sometimes, there's a lot of stuff that my parents never told me. And they won't tell me, because they don't agree with what I'm doing in my life, so they just say, "figure it out on your own." And I do, usually, like I pay for college, books, housing, obviously a new car, ect, but there are just a lot of things about being an adult that I don't know how to handle.  I am really confused about insurance, loans, taxes, and things like that...ahhh I don't know what to do!! They just kind of threw me out there, and didn't explain anything. That's exactly what their parents did, but you'd think that they would explain some of it to Joe and I..but um, no.

Well, I guess I'm just going to have to figure it out on my own, screw up, and learn the hard way. That's life, right? Hmm.

Other random thoughts today..(in no particular order)

1. Jason Morant is amazing. You should check him out. 2. I miss Nick...he comes back June 25th.. 3. I just realized that I'm going to be in school until I'm 25...I'm currently 19 so that sounds like an eternity. 4. It's worth it though, because, A. I will have a real job aka not being a janitor, and B. Speech Pathologists START aroung 60K...and I'm definatly ok with that.

Ok, I think that's all...finally.